I don't want them speculating either, it's ok not to muse about reasons. But putting a shroud over the fact that he killed himself is dishonest. The guy didn't die in a car crash, he killed himself because he believed something to be very wrong about his life. Don't act like it didn't happen, that is not going to help anyone. This suicide hushing up has become all the rage in Germany too, whenever people just die at an age where you wouldn't expect it and the yellow press doesn't mention a cause for the "tragic early passing" you know what happened. But not speaking or writing about suicides and why people feel compelled to do it, doesn't create awareness. In the long run not even the descendants.
Gweimer, I'm happy you feel better now.
I'm not judging about suicide victims and there are scenarios where I think it is acceptable (terminal disease, to escape torture etc, to save someone else's life), but I prefer a saved suicidal person to a dead one. I'm not religious, so it has nothing to do for me with having received a gift from heaven, but being alive is a freaking wonder even if you believe we all came from a gas bubble and will go back there, you just don't throw that away if you can at all help it (I know that with a severe chronic depression you do get worn out fighting it).